But just like every August since Alma passed away, tender mercies began showing up. Sweet reminders and messages (I call them love notes) from Heavenly Father letting me know He's there and helping me feel Alma nearby. I've come to depend on those love notes, especially when August rolls around.
On one day last August, I was at the temple. I always love going to the temple, and I was especially excited to be there because this was my month. The month where the darkness seeps into my soul and I needed my Savior's light more than ever. The temple is also the place where I usually feel Alma most often, and I was hoping so much to feel his presence there. I desperately needed that comfort and reassurance. As I went about the temple, I kept watching and waiting for something, anything that would let me know Alma was close by, but...nothing. I felt disappointed as I changed back into my dress. I tried to shake the feeling and thought, "Well, maybe next time." I grabbed my bag and began walking toward the exit. As I passed through the doorway, I glanced down and noticed a small rainbow prism illuminating the soft carpet. I took note of it and then strode right by it, thinking, "Hmm, that's pretty," with no further thought. When I stepped out into the foyer, that's when it hit me. That was my love note from Alma. There, at the very end when I had almost lost hope, was a very sweet and very personalized message from my son and from my Heavenly Father.
"...the Lord's tender mercies are the very personal and individualized blessings, strength, protection, assurances, guidance, loving-kindnesses, consolation, support, and spiritual gifts which we receive from and because of and through the Lord Jesus Christ..." (David A. Bednar, "The Tender Mercies of the Lord," April 2005).
Later that month in the evening, I was driving by myself to a church meeting. It had been raining earlier, so the air and ground were still wet and the clouds were white wisps in the blue-gray sky. Since it was summer, it was still light out even though it was approaching 7:00. I was thinking about Alma and was rounding a curve when suddenly, right in my line of sight, was a beautiful, vibrant rainbow set against the soaked trees and rainy sky. I couldn't stop the tears from filling my eyes. Another love note.
"I will not leave you comfortless. I will come to you" (John 14:18).
To those whose grief is still very raw and whose sorrow is still a constant companion, don't give up. To those who are struggling through a trial, some heartache, or failure, hang on. Feel all of those hard feelings and know that it does get better. There will come a time when there is more sweet than bitter. Love notes are all around you...if you just look for them. God is there. And just like He has never, ever left me comfortless, He will not leave you comfortless. You can feel peace. Ask God to help you recognize those tender mercies, and He will send help and you'll come to cherish those sweet love notes. God knows who you are because you are His child.
"We should not underestimate or overlook the power of the Lord's tender mercies. The simpleness, the sweetness, and the constancy of the tender mercies of the Lord will do much to fortify and protect us in the troubled times in which we do now and will yet live. When words cannot provide the solace we need or express the joy we feel, when it is simply futile to attempt to explain that which is unexplainable, when logic and reason cannot yield adequate understanding about the injustices and inequities of life, when mortal experience and evaluation are insufficient to produce a desired outcome, and when it seems that perhaps we are so totally alone, truly we are blessed by the tender mercies of the Lord and made mighty even unto the power of deliverance (see 1 Ne. 1:20)," (David A. Bednar)
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| March 2019 |
I recommend this talk (so good): The Tender Mercies of the Lord.
Why rainbows remind me of Alma: 20 Weeks: Rainbow Baby
