Paranoid Parents

The other night I randomly woke up in the middle of the night. I turned over, grabbed the video baby monitor from my side of the bed, and checked on Aidan. His face was turned towards the camera, but I couldn't tell if he was breathing or not. I watched for a few minutes and decided to wake up Jayze.

"Jayze, I can't tell if Aidan's breathing," I shook his shoulder.

He turned over and I showed him the baby monitor. He tiredly watched for a couple of minutes and said, "I can't tell either," and rolled out of bed to go check on him in person.

I put the baby monitor back on my side of the bed and waited for Jayze to come back and tell me the verdict. He stumbled back into our dark bedroom and sleepily climbed back into bed. As he got back in bed, he let me know that Aidan was still breathing. Relieved, I pulled the covers up to my chin and fell back asleep.

What seemed like moments later I heard Aidan crying through the baby monitor. Still groggy, I whispered to Jayze, "Darn it. I wonder why he woke up."

After a moment Jayze sighed and sheepishly said, "I know why. When I went in to check on him, I still couldn't tell if he was breathing so I poked him. He moved a little in his sleep so that's how I knew he was still breathing."

I sat up a little and said, "You poked him? Couldn't you have put your hand above his mouth or on his stomach instead?"

"Yeah. Well, I was really tired, so I poked him, and he just stirred a little bit. He didn't wake up so I thought he was okay."

Jayze got up to comfort Aidan back to sleep.

Yes, Aidan, you have paranoid parents. Thanks for letting us poke you to see if you're still breathing.

Spit-up in my Hair

Right now my house is cluttered with school papers and textbooks, dishes are scattered across the counter and fill up my kitchen sink, the heater is on for the millionth time because it's a whopping 14 degrees outside, and my Christmas tree (although packed up and in its box) is still not put away.  

But tonight my hair smells like spit-up. Baby blankets litter my living room floor. Clean baby bottles lay on a towel by the kitchen sink. And my sweet baby boy lies on his play gym making cooing sounds and sometimes hitting the little toys that hang above his head. 

It's nights like tonight when I count my blessings. The blessing that my heater works, that I can earn a great education at a wonderful college, that I have dishes to wash, and that I have my dream come true right by me in my living room: a healthy, strong, chunky, baby boy. 

And for the reminder from the spit-up in my hair. that my arms are no longer empty, my heart is healing, and God is good. 

Feeling Blessed With This Little Guy in My Life

Moments from 2014

~ January ~

Found out we were pregnant with Aidan

 School started - did my internship and one class

Still worked at the office - that was an awesome job

~ February ~

Prayed to be morning sick so I could know the baby was okay

Did school and an internship and work while terribly morning sick :)

~ March ~

Wrote Alma's story on the blog

Announced our second pregnancy

~ April ~

Finished another semester of school

Became lead student at work

Jayze sang in the priesthood session at general conference

Easter bunny visited - did a scavenger hunt to find the loot

Warmer weather hit 

~ May ~

May 11 - our two-year engagement anniversary

19 Weeks along in our pregnancy - Rainbow baby

~ June ~

Went to Snowflake with my sister, Emily

Visited Alma's grave

Hit 22 weeks along in the pregnancy

~ July ~

4th of July celebration

24th of July Celebration

Jayze and I celebrated our two-year anniversary in Montana

~ August ~

Jayze hiked Table Rock out near the Teton Mountains

Hit 33 weeks along in the pregnancy

Celebrated Alma's one-year birthday

~ September ~

Jayze's birthday on September 1

School started September 15

Trained people at work for the next two weeks - bittersweet day when I quit so I could be a stay-at-home mom

Maternity pictures

Aidan's birthday September 25

 

~ October ~

Learned how to do school with a brand new baby

Aidan's first Halloween - we got four kids trick-or-treating at our house :)

~ November ~

Aidan's baby blessing

Thanksgiving! 

~ December ~

Successfully finished another semester of college

My birthday on the 16th

First Christmas with just our little family

I know I probably missed a few moments, but these are the ones that stood out the most. Happy 2014 and here's to a new year. I hope to love my husband and children more deeply, remember that people are more important than anything else that "needs" to be done, and serve God even when it's not convenient. 

Bring on 2015. :)