Why did I name this blog "Cherish the Moment?"
Because there are so many days that I just go through the motions. Where I just want to be done and want another day to begin because the day before was so hard or busy or boring or sad or not something to be remembered. But why should it not be remembered? Why not remember the hard times, the good times, the sad times, the joyous times, the busy times? I believe those are the times I remember the most.
I remember all the times I pulled an all-nighter, trying to make that massive project deadline.
When I was out running and felt I couldn't go one step more, and actually did go one step more. Maybe even a few steps more...
When I got mad at Jayze for something not even worth getting mad over.
When I held my little baby boy all day long.
When I received my first ever college A on my first ever college English paper from a hard-grader instructor.
When Jayze gave me a flower just because he wanted me to know he loved me.
When my mom called just to talk.
When I read the entire 7th Harry Potter book in two days.
When Jayze took me by the hand and married me for time and all eternity in the Snowflake, Arizona Temple.
When I graduated high school.
When I ditched class my senior year with my friends, just so we could say we did something somewhat rebellious in high school.
When I received that sweet, warm feeling from the Holy Ghost as confirmation that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is true.
When I realized I only have 17 credits left to do until I graduate.
When I got accepted for an internship.
When Jayze and I found out we were pregnant with Alma.
When the nurse couldn't find my baby's heartbeat, and Jayze squeezed my hand so hard as we cried and cried.
When my favorite song came on the radio and I sang as loud as I could to it - just me in the car.
When I made the decision to change my major to English - Professional Writing.
And so, so many more....
Those are moments I cherish. I cherish the moment I got mad at Jayze because it has taught me to not become angry so easily at something not really that significant anyway.
I cherish the moment I received confirmation the Church is true because the gospel has changed my life and has made me a much better person than I would be otherwise. Also, because I can't do anything without my Heavenly Father and Savior Jesus Christ.
I cherish the moment we found out we were pregnant with Alma, because I was so worried we wouldn't be able to get pregnant very fast. You never know.
I cherish the moment we found out Alma died because at that moment, even though it was hard and my heart was broken, the Lord provided peace even then. He provided peace through Himself, and through so many other people.
I cherish the moment I changed my major to English, because it was yet another witness my Heavenly Father is mindful of me. It has changed my life. I wouldn't have the job I have now, I wouldn't have had certain experiences through the past couple of years, and I would have felt more and more unsettled with my previous major.
I cherish the moment I received my first A on my first college English paper because it gave me the confidence I needed to continue on with my decision of changing my major.
I cherish the moment I kept running even when I didn't want to, when I sprinted to the end, because it made me realize I can do hard things.
There are so many reasons to cherish the moment. Some moments are hard, some are easy. Some we forget, and some we remember forever.
But I, for one, want to be happy now. I want to be happy through the hard and easy times. I know there are some things I will forget and some things I will remember forever, but I hope that I can be happy now.
That even though Alma isn't with me right now, I can be happy now, knowing that I will see him and hold him again.
That even though we don't have kids here on earth right now, I don't have to resent pregnant women or other couples who do have kids with them on earth right now.
That even though Jayze and I go through hard times, the good far outweighs the bad. I'm grateful I have him and Alma forever.
I can be happy now, because I choose to be happy now. It's so true that most of us say that we'll be happy when we graduate high school. No, we'll be happy when we graduate college. No, we'll be happy when we get married. No, we'll be happy when we have kids. No, we'll be happy when we finally live in a house. No, we'll be happy when we are financially stable. No, we'll be happy when it's summer again. And it goes on and on.
But life passes by quickly. Life can change in a moment. So, I'm challenging myself to cherish the moment.
